Discombobulated = Me

It's freakin cold here. Note HERE as in, Central Florida. 2 weeks ago I was all taking pictures of my kids playing in the water at the beach and now?! Where'd Mr. Heat Miser go? It's FREEZING! Literally. It is was 31 when I took the girls to school. And now I can see the sun outside, but the heat is still on inside so I know it's barely above freezing outside. Have I mentioned I don't like cold?! Okay, just making sure.

Luckily I have no where I HAVE to be today. So I'm here blogging, because really I want to, and because dude, once a week? I should be ashamed of myself! It's not that I haven't had time, because I'll put anything before housework, and the state of my house proves that. I've just been in a funk.

So this job I got? Well, it was sold to me with a bill of sunshine and roses and flexible this and adjustable that. And holy cow the schedule can do yoga. Um, not so much. Yeah, that schedule changes, weekly, practically daily, but not because I want it too. It just does depending on season and shipments and how many people pick up a Valentine's card and decide not to buy it when they get to the wrapping paper and deposit it there. FOR THE LOVE.

For me ... Flexible = good. Not being able to plan = chaos. See I like schedules and planning and lists. When I said flexible schedule I meant I wanted to be able to attend a school meeting or go on a field trip with my kids (or not). I did not want to pass off my kids on my friends, family and have to hire a sitter every time my kids had a school holiday. Dude until 2 weeks ago, I had NEVER PAID for a sitter for my kids. Cause me = cheap. Many friends have watched them. I'm not a freak who's never left her kid's to go out. I just happen to have wonderful family and friends close by.

Where was I? Oh leaving my kids because I have to work. Seriously, the point of working part time was to be HOME with them, right?! I realize Christmas and Valentine's = CARDS! Really I do, which is why I haven't just quit. I know it will slow down. But then my nervous tummy hits when I realize summer = kids home. When I started I thought an hour alone in early in the morning while they vegged in front of the tv and I was at the grocery store around the block would be good for us all. Independence and all that. Now I am realizing even when it's slow, it's going to be more than I anticipated. Plus, the money? Kinda sucks. Which I was totally okay with when the job was blowing smoke up my ass, now not so much.

Let's do the math:
Crappy pay - sitter extortion = grouchy mom
My previously shared track record for getting into a routine + lack of a set schedule = me discombobulated
me discombobulated = disorganized house (more than normal)
grouchy + discombobulated = me in a funk

Yep, that sums it up nicely. I'll be back... when? Your guess is as good as mine.


*I'm still weighing my options. Possibly looking into a different job. More on that later.

7 comments:

I feel your pain... It's the whole "be careful what you wish for" thing. What is REALLY sad is that my W2 for 2008 said that I barely made $3000 (from Sept to Dec). It seems like a lot of juggling for not that much money, huh? At least I get to work with fun people and learn about all kinds of things like STD, mono, strep and premature ejaculation. Hang in there, honey!

January 21, 2009 at 1:34 PM  

I feel your pain. If you decide to keep the job you can always hit us up to watch the kids. I know we owe you. Carly can entertain them or vice versa.

On a brighter note, I just got my daycare total for 2008.....it was over $6100 and that's just End of April to December....UGH.

I hear only about $3000 is deductible.

January 21, 2009 at 4:54 PM  

ugghhh....I can feel your pain. I went through this a few years back. It was almost MORE hassle than it was working. the money stunk and I had to leave the kids in the summer...that is no fun.
good luck on your decision.

January 21, 2009 at 6:19 PM  

I like a schedule too--that job would not work for me either.

January 21, 2009 at 10:08 PM  

Ooooh, I'm an avid list maker. I, too, like the flexibility to lie within me making my schedule to slide some work in "where it fits for me" so that I can still manage the field trips, doctor's appt., household chores and other duties.

May I ask, what exactly this job is? Christmas and Valentines and cards and wrapping paper. That's all I caught but it left me very curious (and a little confused)?

:-) But, I AM having a brainless day today...

January 23, 2009 at 11:58 AM  

What you're saying is my fear. I had a great job . . . been there for 12 years . . . started full-time before I had kids . . . went part time when I had kids (30 hours a week). Very flexible . . . go to school stuff, or not, work at home when there's no school, etc. But they were always in daycare during summer.

I got laid off December 31st. I WANT to work, but I'm afraid of not having that flexible schedule and not being home when they get home from school and not being able to go to their stuff.

Ugh . . . if you figure out how to do it, lemme know! I could use some advice.

January 26, 2009 at 5:23 PM  

So sorry about this. I've been tossing around the idea of a part-time job (because, um, the economy) and everything I'm interested in is being CUT. So I guess I'll hold off. In fact, what you are telling me let's me know it is the right decision to hold off.

I just wish some money fairy would pay us all to blog!

January 28, 2009 at 11:35 PM  

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